July / August #83 : Mind Trip - by Nina Herzog

POZ - Health, Life and HIV
Subscribe to:
POZ magazine
E-newsletters
Join POZ: Facebook MySpace Twitter Pinterest
Tumblr Google+ Flickr MySpace
POZ Personals
Sign In / Join
Username:
Password:

Back to home » Archives » POZ Magazine issues




Table of Contents

Once Upon A Time...

Young At Heartland

The Lying Game

Life vs. Meth

This Is Only a Test

Mbeki's 180

Spin Doctors

Soda Wars

Iran Runs

New Friend

Sex Crimes

Got Milk? Get Meds

Got His Goat

Monkey C

Mind Trip

Beach Reads

Memory Lane

Face the Music

Failure Is Sweet

Who Done It

Defensive Tackle

Under the Sun

Cave Kava

Relayed Reaction

Habit Helpers

Ticked & Stoned

Rated X5

Vax Populi

TB or Not TB

IV Leader

Flower Children

Milestones

Drug Interactions

Dubya Trouble

Publisher's Letter

Mailbox

Reed Represents



Most Popular Lessons

The HIV Life Cycle

Shingles

Herpes Simplex Virus

Syphilis & Neurosyphilis

Treatments for Opportunistic Infections (OIs)

What is AIDS & HIV?

Hepatitis & HIV


email print

July / August 2002

Mind Trip

by Nina Herzog

"It wasn't meant for me to go," Conscious (the name she chose to better reflect -- and conceal -- her identity) says. "I have a bigger purpose." The former bodyguard to such hip-hop royalty as Busta Rhymes and Missy Elliot, music manager of The Queen Latifah Show and talk-show host for the Oxygen Media Network is now the author of a painstakingly told, page-turning memoir, Getting Unstuck: Girl to Girl, You Can Be Infected Indeed (check out www.prettytomboys.com). Presented as a dialogue between Conscious and her therapist, this is the raw, rare story of a terrible childhood, a mother who turns her back on her children, incest, an adolescence of dealing and drugging, getting HIV from another woman and finally an epiphany -- a cautionary tale she takes on the road to AIDS groups and high schools. Now, sitting across from me at a West Village cafe's skimpy table that's barely able to accommodate her long, athletic legs, she gives me her HIV skinny: positive for nine years, never taken meds, undetectable viral load. Talk about rare.

Equal parts strong and demure, the one-name wonder bears surprisingly few scars from her brutal past. Or perhaps she just hides them expertly. "Dealers tried to kill me at least three times while I was on the street selling," Conscious says. On the floor of a Harlem crackhouse, with cops closing in, she woke up high one last time to the sound of a voice telling her to get up, she had work to do. "Whether it's God or an angel, we all get that voice," Conscious says, "but sometimes we don't listen." Conscious' angel told her that she would get a disease, but that it wouldn't affect her until her work was done. That week she signed herself into rehab.

At the program in upstate New York, everyone got HIV-tested before being released. "As soon as I found out I was positive, I thought, 'Oh, that's what it is,'" she recalls. "They had me on suicide watch -- waiting for a delayed response! But I wasn't surprised or upset. I just wanted to help everyone else through it."

At 37, this Jill-of-all-trades has ditched her musical exploits to spread the word that lesbians are not magically exempt from HIV. "To become Conscious, I had to go through a lot," she says. "I was molested, neglected and led astray. This book is to give people hope to make it from there to here."




[Go to top]

Join POZ Facebook Twitter Google+ MySpace YouTube Tumblr Flickr
Quick Links
Current Issue

HIV Testing
Safer Sex
Find a Date
Newly Diagnosed
HIV 101
Disclosing Your Status
Starting Treatment
Help Paying for Meds
Search for the Cure
POZ Stories
POZ Opinion
POZ Exclusives
Read the Blogs
Visit the Forums
Job Listings
Events Calendar


    guycmh328
    Columbus
    Ohio


    zeze42
    Bay Area - Peninsula
    California


    Heartland4now
    Tacoma
    Washington


    albsur7436
    San Francisco
    California
Click here to join POZ Personals!
Ask POZ Pharmacist

Talk to Us
Poll
Survey
Pop Watch

more surveys
Contact Us
We welcome your comments!
[ about Smart + Strong | about POZ | POZ advisory board | partner links | advertising policy | advertise/contact us | site map]
© 2014 Smart + Strong. All Rights Reserved. Terms of use and Your privacy.
Smart + Strong® is a registered trademark of CDM Publishing, LLC.