November #41 : Tucker: The Man and His Dream - by Susan Schwartz

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Organizing Inside

Concealed Weapon

Long Day's Journey

Lethal Lottery

Natural Bootleg


One for the Books

Flying Ace

Tucker: The Man and His Dream

Hatch a Plan

Signs of Life

The Trouble With Norvir

Engine No. 48,000


To the Editor

None the Wiser

Tomato, Tomahto

Enter at Your Own Risk

Say What

Swim Lessons

Stigma Enigma

Daddy’s Helper

Nushawn on the Block

Privacy Parsed

Equal Protection for All

“Just Say No” to Welfare

Ms. Thurman Goes to Washington

POZ Picks

Show and Tell

The Eye in the Storm

Get Our Phil

POZarazzi: AIDS! The Musical

Verse: Amirah


One for the Books

Flying Ace

Tucker: The Man and His Dream

Hatch a Plan

Poetic License

Poetic License

The Vision Thing

Stop the World, I want to Get Off

Surviving Behind the Walls

Prick and Tell

The Bitter End

Draining the Reservoirs

Testosterone Beats Fatigue

Carnitine Boosts CD4s

Multivitamins for Moms

Bleach Works

HIV Med Line

Weight List

Do the Hustle

A Mantra a Day

Attack of the Monster Combo

Helper Cells

He Still Is What He Is

Dark Secrets

Most Popular Lessons

The HIV Life Cycle


Herpes Simplex Virus

Syphilis & Neurosyphilis

Treatments for Opportunistic Infections (OIs)

What is AIDS & HIV?

Hepatitis & HIV

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November 1998

Tucker: The Man and His Dream

by Susan Schwartz

He beats the odds behind the walls

Mark Tucker lives inside a six-by-nine-foot cell with a man he barely knows. Presence has not made the heart grow fonder.

He's been in prison for a year, he says, because he tried to break up a fight between two friends. The police had a different version, and Tucker was convicted of assault and battery.

Tucker is no newcomer to prison stripes. In fact, it was during a 1992 stint behind bars for drugs that Tucker tested positive for HIV. "The doctor called me into his office and said, 'The good news is you don't have AIDS. The bad news is you have HIV and five years to live.'"

Tucker returned to his cell with the doc's prediction ringing in his ears, but his lips were sealed. He knew that if he showed his sorrow and anger to the other inmates, he would be ostracized. But eventually the pain of hiding -- not to mention the impossibility of covering up nurses visiting at pill time -- outweighed the fright. Tucker began to share. At the same time, he began shaking drug addictions he'd had since age 13.

These days he calls someone who abuses drugs -- or who harasses an inmate with HIV -- an "ill figure." There's nothing he dislikes more than other inmates spouting ignorance.

"Guys will be talking shit about someone in the unit with AIDS," he says, "and they don't even realize I have it." But not for long. Tucker finds that when he shares his own story, inmates react with shock -- if it happened to him, it could happen to them.

Tucker is popular with the prison staff, who made him a "worker," cleaning tables in the unit. This may not be Queen for a Day, but it gets him out of his cell. Other than this, Tucker leads an incredibly regimented life. Meals are eaten at the same time every day, and for exactly 20 minutes. As for meds, the pills are delivered by a nurse, one dose at a time. Unlike many HIV positive prisoners, Tucker sees this as a plus, since he might otherwise forget to take them. But there are minuses. Tucker must hoard boxes of orange juice to help the medicine go down and buy snacks at the canteen to follow his after-dinner (at 4 p.m.) dose.

Tucker's dream is a speedy release so that he can rejoin his girlfriend and son. Meantime, he learns patience, the prisoner's hardest lesson, and looks on the bright side. "Every day you have a chance to do something good with your life," he says. Maybe this sunny determination will warm up his cellmate.

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