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Hey, read your "rant" and appreciated it immensely. Though right now my pain is not being addressed...I don't know what to do anymore...I have made several suicide attempts just to make the Pain stop--I will authenticate it by capitalizing the "P" since Pain is such a familiarity to me that I know his fucking name! What can I do? I am so tired of doctors...doctors who walk out of the room with an uncomforting: "I'm sorry." An excerpt of a piece I wrote...you will understand this Beast of whom I speak: "I attempt to listen to the songbird in the midst of tribulation, but hear only the caw of crows as they flock and flutter about...waiting to peck away at the scraps which remain--filthy vermin gather round to gnaw upon these anquished bones, to devour the Remains.... Helplessly I have wailed out to the heavens for Rescue, but there is no God here. He has abandoned the temple and I am in this Place Alone, left only this Judas body to fight against an opponent who travails daily...wrapped tightly in its wicked, fanged grin..."
What you say is calling it what it is is a negative vulgar rant from an irate man who has no hope i.e. 'screw it'. You may as well have not wrote this article. There is indeed a problem with pain managmement and you point taken that all must take responsibility for each's part in this. That is about all I took away from this blog. No I won't screw it. I will manage my pain naturally or with a competent physicians aid or both. I hope you find relief for you pain. If your in burn out take a vacation, don't need the negativity here.
Hey Bobby C....What you need is a NEW doctor. One without his or head up their ass. I think next doctor should be a NURSE PRACTITIONER BOARD CERTIFIED IN HIV/AIDS NURSING (ACRN or AACRN). If you want help finding one let me know and I will help. Any practitioner that dismisses a patient's pain should be dismissed by the patient. Move it brother. Dr. Fuck Off will get over it, but will you? Ric
I couldn't have said it better -- reading your blog somehow seemingly reconnected me with the HIV/AIDS community! I often think I'm completely disconnected from the HIV community because I always seem to be the ONLY person who has real pain mangement issues (and, yes, I can identify with each issue you mentioned in your blog) -- seriously, I can COMPLETEY relate. According to my doctor, I'm in need of counseling management -- NOT pain management! Confused? I am.
not sure what is being asked in the last few comments but anyone interested in becoming a patient (practice in New Bedford MA) should contact the Greater New Bedford Community Health Center since I am still taking on new patients for the time being.
Richard, hope u don't mind, but screw it. Dr.Renzo, when you return to practice or even before, your forthright approach intrigues me; if you are ever looking for patients. Would like more info. Thanks for what you have informed thus far. Rich (RN).
In case anyone cares to read the "best" book on this brand of Buddhism (emphasizing mindfulness, meditation and reality, instead of gods, demons, heavens and hells) I will supply the two authors who have reliably written excellent, short, easy, direct discussions of these techniques. Steve Hagen (Buddhism Plain and Simple) Stephen Batchelor (Alone with Others) Both men are Westerners who became fully ordained zen priest/monks (years of monastery life, which is not what they write about).
Richard Ferri
Hey JP maybe you should meet JT and stop being so damn judgmental. Remember, everything is fine when everything is fine. Just wait for your shoe to drop buddy. It will. Most providers are too candy assed to do anything real about pain in the face of HIV as a life-long disease. Big Brother, in the name of DEA, watches us providers and those of us who dare step up to plate get slammed. Years ago I was actually shoved against a wall by a DEA agent because I "was giving too much pain medicine to people with AIDS". This bastard literally threatened my career, my personal safety, and my house. I was one of the rare lucky ones that fought back and won. Most clinicians lose and lose big time. Stop being pious and know that others are not in your position and need help. We all do.
May 5, 2010