Well, here I am again and so soon. No surprise, really, considering my last entry. And who would’ve thought it could go from a word I got from a movie about drag queens, to a Toni Braxton song. Talk about extremes but anyhoo, here is the update on Rico since my last entry. It’s over... I made the decision to end it.

I decided to end it after talking to my friend (the one who hooked us up) because she was telling me that Rico still tries to get her sister to take him back despite her being with another person. Even after telling me this, my friend still tried to tell me that Rico still cares about me. Just this past weekend, Rico told me that he loved me. Now my mind is going through all types of scenarios trying to piece together the most logical reason for his actions. The conclusion I came up with is that he thinks he loves us both. Honestly, even with that conclusion, I still feel it’s a crock of shit. I don’t believe a person can be in love with two people at the same time.

But, from what my friend has told me about her sister, I don’t see what Rico could possibly love about her. And why he is so set on trying to get her back when she has moved on with another person? Did he think by telling me he loved me that I would just sit by and wait on him to get over her? Or was it about him trying to have his cake and eat it too?

I did forward to him a text that my friend sent me saying he?d been over her house, begging her sister to get back with him. Followed up by a few things I had to get off my chest too. Amazing how fast my phone rang after I sent those messages. And the voice mail messages begging me to call him. I simply sent him another text explaining to him that it is impossible to love both me and his ex. I would make the choice for him. Enough said and my phone didn’t ring anymore.

I actually thought I would be more upset like on the verge of tears but I’m not. I feel numb more than anything. Not sure if it is my heart feeling that way or the Arbor Mist and good green that I have indulged in. One thing I do know is that I am single again and will not make the same mistake twice. So....Any poz men out there, looking for a poz female? Hey, a Queen has to have a King by her side............