Here I go again. Another relationship bites the dust. I am not here to talk shit on him though I could but it wouldn’t make me feel any better. It would probably make me look bitter which is what I am not. Hurt, yes, who wouldn’t be? I feel more hurt because he was not man enough to tell me himself. He had to have someone else do it. I didn’t think our fight warranted a break up. I am hurt because I believed all those things he said, like we would grow old together or despite our arguements we would overcome them. More importantly he said he loved me. I guess it all was a lie on his part. We have been through so much, who would’ve thought something so trivial would break us up. I know we both said a lot in anger but who knew it would end like this.
I am proud of myself for not shedding a tear though my heart feels like it has been ripped out my chest and stomped on. I can’t help but love him, I invested two years into our relationship. I am trying to move on. I have put an ad on a few dating sites but honestly I am not feeling it. I don’t want to open myself up for another man to break my heart. I know I should not hold what my ex did against the next man. But it is so hard to trust someone else after this. They say time heals all wounds and hopefully my broken heart will mend......in time.